Head to heart as cream to coffee.
Head to heart as me to you."
-Me (hah)
The pen, cream, and myself are the head because as the head we take control. While the paper, coffee, and yourself are the heart; as the heart you start it all: you are the reason the head must take control. My analogy probably sounds chaotic and confusing, but this should be no surprise. Because as you readers know, everything I'd like to say sounds significantly better in my head then in these posts. But to say the least, I try to explain myself, which is what I am about to do as we speak (or read, in this case?).
This summer I have learned a lot about myself and other people. Once again, I have learned a lot about relationships. I have realized how much I am influenced by my head and heart; both acting like my conscious. My head being the angel on my right shoulder, and my heart being the devil on my left. You see, I fully believe both head and heart go hand in hand when it comes to relationships. And as you will see, I am kind of stuck in a fork in the road right now.
There's this boy; there always is. But this boy isn't good for my head, yet he makes my heart skip beats. Here we go. I could swear, he makes me feel the unreal. With him, I feel invincible; yet with him, I feel so small. And why is that? Because I know he's no good for me, but something keeps me coming back for more. I would like to believe that I rather get hurt, then not know at all. But where is getting hurt leading me? It leads me to mistakes; it leads me to heartbreak. And then I have to ask if it is worth it all? Because if I follow my head, instead, nothing can touch me; nothing can break me. But in contrast, if I follow my heart, then all my walls are down, and anything could hurt me. And do I really want to risk that?
Here is what I have come to conclude. This might get messy, so keep an open mind. My conclusion is this: it takes the two. If you are my heart, then give me a reason why my head should let you in. If my heart only hurts me, then my head needs to move on.
Although these statements are boldly absolute, I'm thinking the absolute is the bold reality of it all. Whether we want it to be or not.
As in any relationship, it takes two. If one person is striving to make a relationship work, and the other person is just watching it happen: the relationship will lead to nowhere. And like a relationship, the head and heart work the same. It really takes the two. If only the heart is striving, and not receiving, then the head will just watch it happen: the heart will lead to nowhere, except pain. This is why the head has to take control. So I repeat one more time. If the heart will be stable, then the head can let it be. Yet if this heart is only broken, the head must move on. I hope I am making some sense right now. Whether or not I am, I will simply leave it at this. I must ask to please refrain from your heart over your head; because, although I may be wrong, I fully believe only hurt will come about. And I repeat,
Although these statements are boldly absolute, deep down, I think the absolute is the bold reality of it all. Whether we want it to be or not.
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