Chapter Two

"Everything in life is connected somehow. You may have to dig deep to find it but its there. Everything is the same even though its different. Somehow everything connects back with your life. The faces in certain places may be different, but the situation is the same. Irony is a hidden factor that creeps around us in life, letting its presence felt only after it has left. Picture back to a year ago and the situation you were in. Look at how things are different yet somehow everything it still in someway cognate. Everything connects together to form the balance of life, to maintain structure. Change is and always will be inevitable, but everything is relative, and all the moments and times in your life will come back around again, you just might find yourself on the other side of the coin. Things are always changing, as fast as everything stays the same.”
-Unknown

Looks like I'm back. Sorry if you guys missed me, but don't fear, I have so much to say! Most likely,this post will be all over the place. So prepare yourselves. As some of you may know, I took the last two weeks off from writing, because I needed space. I needed to recollect my thoughts. I was caught in a situation, where I lost my identity, in a sense. As I had said in my previous post, everything I had once believed in slapped me in the face. I was wrong about: everything. And that terrified me.

There was this one guy, he was practically Superman to me. I let him save me for awhile; but we're at the end of a chapter. Superman has other people to save. And although, Superman wasn't so super after all; he will always be my first. First love, first kiss, first heartbreak, first everything. He will always be chapter one. But now I'm ready; ready for my first second. And whomever becomes my second, will definitely not be my sloppy second. I know my second will be better for me, he will be chapter two.

I'm starting to realize the idea that relationships correlate with time. There's a time and place for everything. Superman was chapter one, and maybe it's time to move on to a second chapter, chapter two with Batman? :) Or maybe chapter two, I'll fly solo. I don't know where chapter two will take me, but I am ready. I will be stronger than ever.

Chapter two has just begun, and it is already teaching me a significant amount of aspects; aspects of my life. Such as, independence is beautiful, brave, and possible to attain. Such as, acceptance is beautiful, brave, and possible to attain; learning to accept that I deserve the best. Superman gave me the best at one point in my life, yet there's a reason why books are divided into chapters. If a person lived in a single phase his whole life, he would never grow. A book contains chapters, to distinguish a character's development. Superman was chapter one in my book, but Superman won't rescue me forever. My life needed someone new into the equation; my life needs chapter two. Whether chapter two will be filled with hurt, despair, or happiness, or all the above, it is up to me, and only myself, to find out. I am ready. I am ready, with open arms, to take the next step, I'm ready for chapter two.