Parachute

"The summit of happiness is reached when a person is ready to be what he is."
-Erasmus

To be honest, I haven't posted in a while because I am kind of clustered. I don't exactly know where I want to go with this post, but here's the thing. I made my blog to vent, to release every thing. So here is my raw, true, every thing.

I want to be: accepted, beautiful, strong, invincible and free.
But I feel: so small, so invisible, so fragile.

It is these feelings that overwhelm me. It is these feelings that scare me. These feelings, my little wrecks, act as cracks in the pavement; I don't want to stump on these cracks, wrecks, and feelings. Rather, possibly naive of me to say, I want to defeat gravity; and it is, my own gravity, that brings me down. Therefore, I want to fly above my cracks, wrecks, and feelings. I want to parachute into happiness. Yet a parachute, itself, has several parts, pieces, that complete it. To defeat my gravity, my cracks, wrecks, and feelings I need to find these pieces of me. Pieces of inner strength, genuine happiness, and the aspects listed above. It is these pieces that will make me fly.

And as of now, it is my goal, to negate each negative feeling, each negative piece of me. Starting today, I will negate feeling so small, so invisible, and so fragile. I hope to succeed; but more importantly, I hope that I will never have to feel this way again. And I hope my goal can rub off on, inspire, anyone who feels, or have felt, the way I do. Because Erasmus is right; in order to achieve happiness, one must be ready. And I am, absolutely, ready.