October 19, 2011: that is what my school declared as fall break, a four-day release of pure, and utter freedom. October 19, 2011: that is what I declared as my third visit back home, a four-day release of pure, and utter nostalgia. Freedom and nostalgia, both separate and yet the same. Separate and yet the same like a collision, a Clash of Civilizations, or better yet, a clash of transformations.
While Huntington’s The Clash of Civilizations theorizes a future conflict between cultures, my clash of transformations theorizes my college life conflicting with my past. Like country-line barriers, the barrier between my life as a college girl and my life as a daddy’s girl practically repel against one another. I had felt like a complete and total stranger in my own home. And before I knew it, I found myself questioning the meaning of home. Because in this clash of transformations, the college girl had her city and the daddy’s girl had her suburbs.
A good friend of mine once shared that, “Life and people sometimes don’t mix. Times and trials and health and maturity sometimes make it impossible for two people who might be perfect together to communicate and operate and treat each other with respect just because they’re in two different places in life.” My friend and I were confiding in each other about our past, including of course, relationships! And when reminiscing about our past relationships, we both concluded that the quote above could be a possible explanation for why people come and go, which has always been a giant question mark in my book. But while concluding why people come and go, the quote above also revealed to me some insight to what I consider my clash of transformations.
Like stated above, “Life and people sometimes don’t mix… just because they’re in two different places in life.” That’s just it. I’m not saying there’s no way to settle the conflict between the college girl and the daddy’s girl, but rather, the college girl and the daddy’s girl are just in two different places in life. And while, “life and people sometimes don’t mix”, sometimes life and people do mix. The college girl will always have her free city and the daddy’s girl will always have her nostalgic suburbs; and I will always have both and call them my home.
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