It's Not Me, It's You

"It's not you, it's me.": An infamous arrangement of words, possibly considered the most universal, renown break-up line.
**that is my personal definition, not just a copy and paste definition from urban dictionary.

Remember how I decided to do a "word of the month"? Well last month, my "word of the month" helped me acquire a part of myself I had never realized until now. With every failed relationship I was in, whether friendship or more, I have questioned myself. With every failed relationship, it seems as if I have dissected every little action I contributed to. My mentality: what did I do wrong? Notice this question does not consider the other side of the relationship or the dilemmas partaken during the relationship. Rather, this question investigates only myself. If you are wondering, my "word of the month" was empowerment. But where does empowerment chime in? Empowerment answers my profound, never-ending, contemplating question: it is and should not always conclude to what I did wrong. I should not believe "it's not you, it's me", but instead look at it as: "it's not me, it's you."

You, being my past.

The past like weight on my shoulders. But this gravity, I am letting go. And as a new month approaches, I will embark upon a new word. My "word of the month" for April is allow. You see, the single and yet most major flaw to emboding empowerment was my urge to perfection, which is how I came about my perversed mentality of reflecting over what I did wrong. This month, instead of aiming for unattainable perfection, I will simply allow. Allow new experiences, ideas, relationships, and even mistakes into my life. Starting this April, I cannot and will not control everything; I cannot and will not try to mold everything to perfection. However, I can and will allow whatever comes my way, whether good or bad.

So April, if you allow me to, I am ready.